Thanks.
I suppose that you're right ... most of the time. But, I'm bored. I'm tired of having to have help from everyone and I'm tired of being in pain and I'm tired of these stupid drains. I'm trying to keep my spirits up, but ugh.
Suck it, Cancer.
Surgery went well on Tuesday. As the plastic surgeon accurately predicted, there is so much other pain that I don't even feel the incision from the latest slicing. The pathology came back and showed no cancer in the sample. They did find the clip and the tracks from January's biopsy, but no cancer cells. My surgeon tells me that this is good news.
There were, indeed, two tumors. One that we knew about (but that was all removed during the biopsy) and another that they didn't even see before the mastectomy. This does not great confidence instill. I would have felt much better if they HAD found cancer on Tuesday. At least we would know that we have clean margins and that it is out. But, instead we have to trust that ALL the cells ... every single one of them ... were removed in the exploratory part.
What else don't they know is in there?
Frightened, but trying to stay strong,
Liz
13 comments:
You're doing great. You can't expect to always be fearless - you'll do your best each day and that will be enough.
Love you all.
Suck it, cancer.
Annie
Liz, you can do it. Just be you and trust God. Don't feel you have to appear 'strong' just because people think you always are. Let God worry about it. Once you have had cancer, I don't know if the questioning about whether it's still there, or if another one will develop ever goes away...I'm new to this too. In a few weeks when the pain subsides and you are able to do some things for yourself more easily, you won't be thinking about it every waking moment...if that's what you are doing. Keep praying for God's will to be done... that's sure helped me...maybe it will help you too. Know that you are in my prayers, and many other people's too! Even people you don't even know! God bless you and your beautiful family!
Good Morning....keep up the spunkyness...(thanks for strengthing me too)......cry from time to time....trust the One who loves you the most...go girl!!
What a mess. I can't believe all that you have been through. I hope that you are letting your emotions out, we don't need to see you strong. In fact, we don't need anything from you. Just take it a day at a time. Love and hugs... well maybe not hugs, that probably hurts... so maybe pats on the head. Jamie
Once again, I echo all that everyone else has said here. We all admire you even when you feel down, afraid, and not all that strong. You are an amazing person who has been delt an extraordinary hand. Allow those of us around you to be strong for you...Suck it, Cancer.
xoxo ~mp
You are the bravest and strongest frightened person I know...who is surrounded by lots and lots of love and prayers. Every single minute.
Love you,
Sarah
You're still the strongest person I know, especially in light of the fact that you've admitted that despite all you've been through you still feel a healthy dose of fear. Sounds like you're still on the path to recovery - a very good road to be on. We love you tons. Go, TEAM HEWITT!!! Love, A the the Wills clan.
Liz, You are strong you are surrounded by many who love and support you. I only wish I was closer to lend you a hand. Know, you are in my thoughts, prayers and always in my heart.
Feel the power of God that surrounds you now, when you are tired let Him carry you.
Terri
Liz,
I've been faithfully reading these updates, and you're more inspiring than you know.
Sending warm thoughts and many prayers your way.
Love,
Anne Hauth
I'm afraid I can't take away the scary stuff, but I can help with the boredom. Megan & I hand-selected some DVDs from the Arriola family movie library and I am going to drop them off at Casa de Hewitt this weekend. Tried not to pick anything too hilarious as I'm sure that laughing is an uncomfortable activity these days.
J
Now, I'm pretty sure that I said all the wrong things on the phone this morning- so, sorry about that. My bad. But instead of repeating the error here (unless I already did), I will just say: I love you, I support you, I'm here for you, and I'm so glad that you have such an amazing support network.
Love, H
You call me, I can make you laugh with tales of found jackets from Home Depot. There's more where that came from, baby.
“The everlasting God has in His wisdom foreseen from eternity the cross that He now presents to you as a gift from His inmost heart.
This cross He now sends you He has considered with His all-knowing eyes, understood with His divine mind, tested with His wise justice, warmed with loving arms and weighed with His own hands to see that it be not one inch too large and not one ounce too heavy for you.
He has blessed it with His holy Name, anointed it with His consolation, taken one last glance at you and your courage, and then sent it to you from heaven, a special greeting from God to you, an alms of the all-merciful love of God.”
-- St. Francis de Sales
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